A met my friend, Michelle, today for breakfast at Panera Bread. She goes to my church, which is Manoa Community Church and is the daughter of the pastor there. I told her pretty much everything about the break-up and she was probably more mad than I was. She told me I don’t deserve someone who won’t make me a priority. This is the first time I heard that. I was shocked.
After thinking about it, she was right. He broke up with me because he wanted to save up for a new car. He broke up with me because he wanted to get his career started. What? Was he spending too much money on me? What career did he want to start? His comedian career or his career in social work working with children with cancer THAT HE IS STILL GOING TO SCHOOL FOR?! I don’t think he knows. I also don’t think he knows how to manage his money. I don’t think he was ready for a relationship that could potentially been a forever relationship.
Maybe this was a sign, but I won’t know until my heart allows me to pick up the pieces and move on. Hopefully, this weekend I’ll be able to take the scrapbook out of my trunk and list the 49 items on the bucket list. I have to do it at some point and I’ll probably be a wreck and need some saving.
However, moving on to a different happier subject is that it is #NATIONALCOFFEEDAY !!!! If you knew me, I love my coffee. I went to Wawa to get my sister and I some coffee. I love Wawa’s and Starbuck’s coffee.
I’m starting to cry and I’m working. I don’t need to be a blubbering mess now. I’m going to go before the waterworks start.