Relationship Bucket List: Insight

Insight refers to the process of making a client aware of something, which was previously unknown.

I went to counseling in undergraduate and graduate school. I was currently living with my boyfriend at the time, but we ended the relationship for various reasons. I was having problems with my mom and the counselor was trying to make my mom the issue, the problem when she really wasn’t the problem. My mom and I were having problems at the time, but I wasn’t about to let a PhD candidate student about to my a mockery of my mom.

My mom was nowhere near perfect, but she wasn’t the problem. I was looking for something that I was unaware of. I was looking for support. I wasn’t getting it from my family, I wasn’t getting it in the relationship I was in, and I certainly wasn’t getting it in the workplace. My boyfriend at the time came from the country where all his friends and family close by. I had to drive an hour plus just to see friends and family. He didn’t know how to support me, but then again I tried my best to explain that to him.

I was screaming for attention and no one could hear me.

The PhD candidate made me aware of more than necessary. The relationship I was in would never work in the long run. I was capable of just about anything. My mom taught me thinks unconsciously without being there. My mom was not the enemy.

The most important thing I learned was that I didn’t need support from anyone. I knew I was in this place for a reason. God put me here to teach me a lesson.

Shortly afterwards, we broke up. This is when I decided my heart belongs to God. He will give my heart to the man that deserves it; who fully deserves it. This future husband will not use a cop out to end the relationship.

Dear Future Husband,

I can’t wait to meet you. I’m excited to find out who you are.

Love, Your Future Wife.

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As always, kisses on the peace sign fingers and love…

XO Jenn

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